Life...The Most Complicated Thought

The unexamined life is not worth living. ~Socrates

The Last Lecture

The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch is an excellent book for readers of all ages. After reading the stories of Dr. Pausch's life and classroom, I was heart-broken that he left this world after so many accomplishments. I wonder if he had more time, what other things he would have done.
I am happy to learn that in his short life, he fulfilled all his dreams. First of all, he realized what his dreams were and kept up with them. After reading the book, I thought about my childhood dreams, and honestly, I can't think of any. I mean now I have goals and dreams in my life, but I think about my childhood dreams, it is sad to say I have none. I mean when I was little, I never thought of what I wanted to become, or things I wanted to accomplish. I went through college and met people and then I decided what my dreams and goals are.

His book definitely inspired me. I think this would be one of the books that I would want my kids to read. His life is inspiring. Even though his life was short, he accomplished so much more. His family and he deserves a standing ovation. Lastly, hats off to him for dealing with his illness in such a calm way.

However, I did not like how the format changed in the book. Initially the chapter transitions were nice and smooth, but later in the book, I felt it got little choppy. He jumped around a little bit with no connection between chapters.

Overall, it is an excellent read. I can't wait to watch the lecture on video. And I am thinking about checking out the program Storytelling Alice. Maybe I will learn a thing or two about computer programming.

Heaven Yesterday...Hell Today!

Yesterday was amazing. The snow brought in a new atmosphere...Gloomy day suddenly became a day filled with laughter. It was like heaven on earth. It started around 8 I believe. Here is the picture of plants outside the house:

We got ready to go out wearing heavy snow jackets (the ones I bought when I went to Chicago...finally some use for them). We took pictures and played in the snow. Then our neighbor came out and their 2 little kids started playing with us. Then the parents went to the backyard and brought back buckets full of snow that had piled up on their trampolines. Finally, being completely numb, I went inside and got under the cozy blanket to keep warm. The next picture shows more snow:
This morning when I woke up, it was still white. It was damn cold though. Before leaving for work, I took more pictures:

It was all good until I left my house. I got on I-10, and in few minutes, I crossed an accident on the opposite lane, where an 18-wheeler was overturned and a car was burned to nothing. I just wish nobody was hurt. I also felt bad for the people stuck in traffic behind that accident. I know that feeling.
Then I crossed another two accidents, and in one, the car's front was complete gone. Again, I wish nobody was hurt. I finally got to work. When parking in the garage, we were told the the top floor is all iced, so I had to park at the very end. I was super late to office today.

Then when I read the news, I saw an article in Houston Chronicle titled, "Unusually High Number of Traffic Accidents Reported." So that didn't help how I was feeling. Then on CNN, they just released that they found some child remains near Anthony's home. I have been following this story, and I was just wishing that Caylee was not dead. I am sad that her life had to come to an end at such an early age, and her own mother was somehow involved. She was just a little girl. Makes me sad to know that people like Casey Anthony exist in this world, who are so cold-hearted that they go to such extent as to hurt their own child. I hope she gets what she deserves.

I hope we will have a safe winter.

My Heart is Crying...

I am drowning in mixed emotions right now. I am mourning over the loss of a loved one. What I feel inside, nobody can feel or tell. But I must show my emotions to the damn society.

Loss in a family is the greatest sorrow. Their importance is felt after they have left us. But when they were alive, we ignore them or take them for granted. The respect grows after they leave. Their accomplishments are remembered after they are gone. We always wish that they had lived few more months or few more years. But death is inevitable. It will strike and there is nothing we can do to stop it. Our death is decided when we are born, and no doctors can use science to extend it. Birth and death are two things that God controls. He has already decided where we will be born, where we will die, and how.

This brings me to loss of those innocent lives in Mumbai attack. My heart cries out for the victims and their family. Their end was destined in that attack thus they were at those locations. In some cases, it was their first time visiting the hotels and this tragedy happened. This tragedy proves that there is little or no humanity left in this world. Leave humanity, nowadays people don't even respect relationships. Siblings are no longer siblings. From hearing and watching the news, now there seems to be some fault in the relationship between parent and their child. Lastly, the pure relationship between husband and wife is being ruined by money and divorce. Not to discredit anyone, some people still exist that love and respect others.

There is lack of humanity but at the same time, we have this damn society breathing down our necks. If we do something, it is not acceptable. If we don't do something, that is not acceptable. Somebody will speak up. So we are suppose to act as puppets, who are going to smile and cry as ordered by the society. If we don't follow, then we disgrace our values, traditions, and parents. So the bottom line is, we come in this world to breath and move at the order of the society. So when the society will say, "Your mourning period is over, and now you can smile," I will cry and show them I don't agree. I don't give a damn about society. Why should I respect them, when they made me feel like a nobody? Why should I?

After all this ranting, I want to know where we stand in this world and what will happen to us. What kind of world will it be 10 years down the road when our kids will be born? Will we have the values and traditions of our ancestors? But that is not the question. The question is will our kids or our next generation accept those values and traditions. Will there be any harmony between the older generation and the new? These questions are just the few to ponder. The true question is "How will we survive?"